Noah Edward

Well this boy is definitely ALL boy there is NO doubt about that!  His Pediatrician referred him to a behaviorist in March when he had his 4 year WCC.  We started monthly trips to Mark in April with the last one this month.  We have no more appointments set up with him, I think he is even at a loss as to what to do with him.  His last result or should I say suggestion was medication due to his energy.  He's sort or concerned that he might be ADHD or have some sort of depression disorder.  It's disturbing to me as his Mother, I want to get to the bottom of it and find out what is wrong if something is "wrong".  It's better to get to the bottom of things early than when he's in his teens and "pretend" everything is "OK."  I know normally all you read in blogs, including my own are the good things or the happy things but this is necessary to because MAYBE someone will read it who is having the same issues or similar and will feel not alone, cause I kinda feel alone trust me!




So his behavior really started as the typical terrible twos, or threes.  But it has greatly escalated.  Now he talks in this mean voice, not all the time just when he doesn't get what he wants or he's angry.  He hits, he's very very defiant.  Don't look at you when your talking to him unless your right in his face reminding him every 30 seconds to look at you.  To be perfectly honest, I don't know if it was just because I'm his Mom and being naive or what but I honestly thought maybe it was just the fact that it was that he was a strong willed child.  Which HE IS!  He is smart, probably too smart for his own good.  But he's very defiant and that has to stop. 






I have been going to church every week, when we aren't at camp.  I have been trying to bring him with me when he's home at least every other week.  He knows he is suppose to sit and not talk and such but do you think that happens?  No he normally starts acting up when church starts, and it's just to be smart.  I know it is!  Like I said he's not dumb!  Then when it's children's church he won't go up front, and then it's time to go downstairs he tries to act all shy.  He knows everyone there, last week the guy that took him down picked him up and carried him down!  He was with him all through VBS and is normally with him on Sundays too, so Noah knows him, and I did NOT mind at all!






This weekend Noah went to camp with my Mom and Dad.  I had to work today, and it sounds mean and I probably shouldn't even say it but I enjoy the peace and quiet.  I needed this.  I really did, for a week I suffered through a headache, and then I had eye issues for 2 days, and now again this leg issue still hanging on.  I gotta say MS sucks!  I must say that even though I have to deal with the stress of a defiant 4 year old, living with my parents, and this Multiple Sclerosis.  I am blessed, blessed more than I probably deserve to be.  You know I was planning on moving out after my car was paid off which was in April.  And still often think of it.  Especially when I find nice places in nice neighborhoods cheap.  But then God kicks this MS up, and or my sons behavior, and I'm reminded just how much better we probably are here right now anyway.  I can pay the bills I have, and pitch in towards this household now that I don't have the close to $500 payment a month. 

Mid July....when did this happen???

I cannot believe it's mid July already, I feel like we just celebrated the 4th.  The older I get the faster the time goes.
So life has pretty much been the same old lately, nothing dramatically new or anything.  Noah is finished with Pre-School and as of June 9th is in Pre-K.  He seems to like it, during the summer they go on a few  field trips, so he has gotten to go to Lake Tobias and just today they we wnt to Let's Pretend, then to Hoffer Park for a Picnic and to play for a little while!  He had fun! 
I'm still having behavior issues with him.  We were to the behavior specialist 4 times, and it did seem to work until after the 3rd visit.  Literally we left there that time and a switch flipped and he was not only normal but WORSE, so Monday when we went for the 4th time he seemed to not know what to say to do.  So that kinda made me feel at a loss, I mean this boy is smart, too smart for his own good maybe.  He started talking ADHD and medication and all this, and I'm sorry he's 4, my son is NOT going on medication.  I mean do not get me wrong I get it if they need it they need it but NOT at 4.  So I sat down and made a Rules list and Chores list.  After his bath last night my Mom and I sat with him in his room and went over them, told him that it was going to start in the morning. 
First thing this morning......perfect, got up talked nice, got himself dressed, everything great....until we left.  We go to get in the car, to go to school, he decides in stead of getting in his booster seat he's going to put down the middle of the seat and climb through to the back.  Yeah this was the "fight" at 7 this morning for 5 minutes that SHOULD NOT have happened. 
Had a perfect day at school, purple card (yay), then Grammy took him up to Aunt Joann's after she got off work to play with Antonio for a little and they didn't come home until 6.  Also was perfect there as well, then he came home and had a few incidents, one in particular was BAD kicking screaming knocking stuff over, acting like a maniac, you couldn't talk to him because he was being loud.  So what does Mom do?  Pick him up and carry him to his room, and tell him to stay there until he's done, he said he was done so I tried talking to him a little bit about it  Then we get a bath and he is all better!  Went to bed around 8:45 read 3 books he had me get on my kindle and he was out like a light.
I love my son and there is nothing that I wouldn't do for him, including get to the bottom of what exactly is  going on with him.  Is it just a behavior issue, is it ADHD, is it a Depression thing, what EXACTLY is it???????  I don't know, it makes  me sad.  I just want to figure stuff out.  That's what I have been trying to do since April....but apparently we have back slided somehow.  I don't know.