Noah's first sleep over alone :(

So finally after almost 6 months, I gave in and let me sister and Danielle take Noah for the night! I didn't want him to go, but I knew I had to. He's 6 months old and is really only not with me while I'm working, and the occasional grocery shopping. He does NOT like grocery shopping! They didn't get here until almost 7, so that was kinda nice because he was here longer! After he left I did the dishes, attempted to pull the systems up on the laptop that I need for work, which didn't work so now I have to go in the office tomorrow. Now here I am, surfing on the Internet, was just on Facebook which is really getting old. And decided that maybe I should document this day!

That handsome little man is what I'm missing right now :( It's amazing how much of your time they consume, and you don't realize it until they aren't with you.

1/2 a year already!

So today Noah is 6 months old!!




I can hardly believe it's been 6 months since I brought this precious little miracle into this world!! He has really been a blessing to me! He lights up my life every single day! Never fails! I love that little man more then anything else in this world!


So in 6 more months I'll be planning a 1st birthday party! I don't know if I should be excited about that or sad! He had squash, and oatmeal for his birthday dinner! Anyway, Aunt Chrissy and Aunt Danielle just got here for Noah's birthday!

Sad days

Noah's Father passed away Thursday August 12, 2010. He was only 31 years old so his life was cut way short. It's a very sad thing.



Noah never had a opprotunity to meet his Dad. Jeff had other things he needed to figure out before he could be a active member in Noah's life. Jeff and I were great, but his daughters Mom had made him choose a relationship with her or me and the baby. It broke my heart from the time I was pregnant with Noah that Jeff never showed any concern for Noah, never asked how he was doing or if he needed anything. That made me feel so sad. I know that he had a lot on his plate, and wanted to get his life together. Now that he's gone, Noah will never have the chance to meet his Dad, and have a realationship with him either. That really kills me inside. A piece of my heart went along with Jeff.

His Obituatary is in the paper today, and it killed me a little more to see that he apparently did not tell his family, Mom Dad and brother, about Noah. So Noah is not acknowledged in his obituary which breaks my heart.

Things were not easy, actually I kinda feel guilty for making it hard, and wanting him to prove he cared and really wanted to be there. I wasn't keeping Noah from him, I just wanted him to show that he cared. I wanted him to be ready to be a active member of Noah's life and not be in and out of it. Unfortunately God had other plans for him, so he never got the chance to change, or show he cared.

He also has a daughter that is a year old, Jayana. She got to have a relationship with Jeff, and seen him often. For that I am thankful for, she has something Noah never will have.

His funeral is Tuesday evening, it will be a very hard time. Even though Jeff and I did not have the best relationship, I have known him since I was a teenager so it still would be hard now it's just harder because of Noah.

I have prayed that Jeff was not in any pain when he passed, and that he wasn't scared also. I sure hope that he didn't feel pain and wasn't scared. I will be sure to tell Noah all about you Jeff, and let him know that you were a great person.

May Jeff rest in peace, I know that you are up there watching over all your family and friends. I also know that you not only will watch over Jayana but also Noah. and my thoughts and prayers are with Jeff's family and Jayana as well.

Sunday Fun day!!

So today was a exciting day for me!! I went to LCBC for the first time in about a year! It felt so good to go! I love that Church. Especially since I grew up only knowing Catholic Church Masses. It's nice! I wanted to take Noah for the first time, the kids have their own Sunday School they go to, of course the babies up to I believe 2 years old don't do anything, that's just like day care.
But I know when he gets older he will love it! I felt very good about taking him, I don't know exactly why but I just feel better now!

Noah was looking handsome as usual for Church!

So yeah can't figure out how to rotate this, it rotates in my pictures but uploads this way LOL

His diaper bag tag, they keep the babies and parents stickers so this is all I have LOL I think it's great they found a way to make sure kids aren't just walking out of there with anyone. You get a sticker with a letter/number combo, their name tags have the same number. If you don't have the matching one, you don't take the kid!

So I must admit that the Manheim campus is SO much bigger, and maybe a tad better but this Harrisburg one is nice!! My sister came with us, she enjoyed herself! I'm so happy about that! Now it's a Sunday thing, we go to Church and next week we will go for lunch afterwards!

My sister was kind enough to meet me this morning with a Carmel Frappachino from Starbucks :) Yummy!!! (those aren't the ones she bought us, that's just the only pic I have of them LOL) That was a nice treat!! After Church we went to Target Noah needed diapers. I never knew how many diapers I'd be going through.....but it doesn't take long to kill a box of them!! So we had a great day with Aunt Chrissy. I can't wait for next Sunday!!

Noah is taking a nap, he had a busy day so far. Still no more teeth have come through. I don't know how long they are going to wait!! Those Hyland's Teething tablets really work! So I will definitely keep them around until he has all his teeth!!

I'm so excited to take him to his 6 month appointment on the 18th! Not because he's 6 months, or because he's getting more shots :(, but because I can't wait to find out how much he weighs and how long he is!! It's always different from what we get here at home, so I stopped trying to make it right and just wait!!!

But I think that's all for now! It's been a great weekend, and a absolutely wonderful Sunday!!! I really am blessed, I have said that many many times before but I really seen that today!

Noah started doing new things this weekend!!

This past weekend Noah started doing 3 new things!!! He started holding his bottle, not exactly the whole time but for a few minutes at a time! He also started to sit up by himself for a minute or so each time! You can see him trying to balance himself it's so cool!! The 3rd and final thing he started doing, is getting up on all 4's and rocking back and forth a few times before collapsing! LOL He did that 3 or 4 times!!

I can't believe this month my baby will be 6 months old! Half a year already! It's crazy how fast time flies! Even crazier how amazing babies really are! To think that 5 months ago he was swaddled in a blanket and slept 3/4 of the day not doing anything at all besides cry when he was hungry. Now he's holding his bottle, definitely wouldn't think about being swaddled! Eating cereal and after his appt later this month fruits and veggies. Lifting his head up high, already has his 2 front bottom teeth, and the top front one is poked through just barely! He's simply amazing! I had no idea how much I would be amazed by him, or how much I'd love that little guy! He makes me smile when smiling is the farthest from my mind!

I must admit being a single Mom is the hardest in the world, but thankfully I have great parents and a great sister and sister in law that help when I need it! I'm blessed in so many ways! I wouldn't change a thing right now. I wish Noah's Dad was in the picture, not for my sake but for Noah's he doesn't deserve to grow up without one. But if his Dad wants to miss out of him then that's on him. I cannot make him come around, my job at the end of the day is to make sure Noah is safe, clean, happy, full belly. Has everything he needs, that's it. So we are just fine without him.


Noah is taking his evening nap right now, and will probably be getting up really soon. He had to get his bath early because at day care he had formula on the back of his hair. And they don't prop bottles! Right! Mysterious scratches on his leg, foot and belly also. Not sure if it's from teacher or other babies. It's frustrating having him in day care. I wish I could just stay home with him but I gotta make money!!

In any case, I was only going to write about the new things he started doing, but it ended up going other places!! I guess I'll end this post so I can get some stuff done before Noah man wakes up!

Camping weekend

So we are finally home from our camp. It's only 1 1/2 away but it feels like it's far far away when your there!!! 30 minutes just to get to Wal Mart.....it's pretty secluded! LOL Noah LOVES it at camp! He has been going since he was about 5 weeks old! He's always happy there, and usually sleeps better there to. Not sure if it's the fresh air or what.
It's nice to go there, just to get away. But it's always nice to come home. It's kind a pain because with a baby you have to over pack. I even forgot to take diapers once, and that was a mess! Had to hurry out to Wal Mart to get some quick!! Usually we run out of formula and end up having to go buy another can. But this time I was prepared with 2 cans and we didn't even finish one! Imagine that! Regardless, it's fun to get away and Noah loves it! Besides a lot of my Mom's side of the family goes up there to, so we get to see family to.

This is from the first weekend at camp at 5 weeks old!


This is from this weekend, he's 5 months!


Mommy and Noah his first trip there!!!


Mommy and Noah this weekend!


Sitting up in his pack n play bassinet



In the river!


He is such a water baby!! Oh and yes that is my sisters dog Maci in a tube!! Her back legs were standing in the river and she had her front pawa on the tube!! She's a special little dog!! But anyway Noah loves getting a bath he loves it in the river!! I'm going to have to put him in swimming lessons so that he learns how to swim in case he ever goes and gets into water without me knowing! I'm pretty sure that won't happen, but that is the kind of stuff that happens when you think it won't!! I'm really glad he likes water though, even when he's getting a bath if you ring the washcloth out over his head he doesn't even cry that's great!! This was the 3rd time that Noah has been in the river now!